Even though my family of three (My husband, my baby boy, and I) were living in a beautiful home, rent free, we were still only getting enough money coming in to make it by. At one point we only had $25 in our bank account. That was my lowest point I have ever been in regards to finances. We didn't have any needs in that moment. We had plenty of groceries, the bills were paid, we had enough gas in the car but if anything happened or came up we were in trouble. That was a very hard season with finances being so tight. We never got in thousands of dollars just hundreds of dollars monthly.
I was learning how to rely on God even more in that tight season. Once a month I would write God a list of our needs, our wants, and our bills. I would separate them on paper so I could see what was what. When I was stressed about our expenses I would write it more than just once a month. Every time I wrote that list it was like my stress went from my heart onto the paper and I would have this peace come over me. I realized it was me giving God the weight of our needs. Now it was Jesus carrying the heavy load instead of me.
"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light." - Matthew 11:28-30
I realized that when I gave that list to God I was giving Him my burden. I was working with God instead of just working on my own. I saw so many miracles writing that list to God. He came through in the most amazing ways.
One of my wants list was a collar for my dog that would help keep her on our property. We didn't have a fence. She wanted to be outside but she would run. A month or so after I put that collar on the list my sister came over out of the blue with the exact collar I was asking for. She said she found it out a garage sale and bought it for me. WHAT?!? I never told her but God knew!
Another time I put Christmas Decorations on the list. I had totally forgot I had put that on my list sometime in October or November. Someone brought it bins of their unwanted Christmas decorations to me. As I was looking through my journal one day I came across one of my needs, bills, and wants list to God and saw I had written Christmas Decorations. My heart jumped. Though I had forgotten about that request yet God had not.
Time and time again God not only brought in my wants but would bring in finances to pay the bills even the unexpected bills. He would put food on the table and gas in our car. God supplied.
Life is hard. Sometimes ends just don't meet but God knows and He longs to help you with what you are going through. He is a good father. He loves you. God doesn't want you to carry the burden by yourself. He wants to do it with you. When you have time today get a piece of paper and write a needs, bills, and wants list and give it to God. Say "God I give these burdens to you. Please I need your help." And anytime you feel the weight of your needs write them down and ask God to help.
Our church knows this is a hard time for a lot of people. We want to help also. Every 1st and 3rd Friday of the month we give groceries to anyone who comes. You don't have to be from our area or show any form of ID. If you need food then come. 5pm-7pm at 2810 N Park Rd Spokane Valley WA
If you need someone to pray for you we would love to. Comment below or send an email to firstname.lastname@example.org.
My family and I did make it through that season and though we don't have a lot now, we have way more than we did then. No matter what season we have walked in, my family has seen God's hand provide time and time again. He really is an amazing and good God.
From the Heart,
The Pastor's Wife